“Why did it have to turn out this
way, Kenta?”
Laylah’s eyes were red, her cheeks
wet and black from her mascara. Her sandy hair seemed almost white in the full moon. I still couldn’t believe this
wasn’t the first time I saw her in that white dress, with that magnolia flower
in her hair, standing near the beach, crying. Whatever bizarre case of déjà vu
I was having, she had it too. I think I was taking it much better than she was.
“Laylah, I…” I saw you die, I wanted to say. Years
ago, but not even a minute ago here. What the hell is going on?
“To think that all this ended even
before it even had a chance to start,” she said through clenched teeth. “Why
does is hurt so much, being around you? Why do I remember things that didn’t
happen?! Tell me!”
I couldn’t tell her about the time
leaps and that I saw her die time and time again. I couldn’t tell her it was
her, or some version of her, that taught me how to do it. It didn’t seem
relevant. She seemed to be remembering something I only had a hunch about. I
was madly in love with her but when exactly did that begin? Did the leaps mess
with my memories or was it someone else?
She was walking away again. Again?
Did she do that before? That’s when I saw a shadow move somewhere in the bushes
and I knew what was going on. I shouted her name and she turned around with eyes
wide with hope, but I was too late. Just as soon as I saw her eyes meet with
mine, the life faded away from them. Again I saw her die. Again I screwed up.
Again I wanted to just tear through the fabric of time and space and just keep
her alive. I need her alive.
I didn’t even care to look at who
did it. Now that I think about, I should have maybe checked out the place I saw
the shadow. But at that moment, all that mattered was that Laylah was gone in
that timeline. And I had no business in that kind of place. I closed my mind
and leapt back. Back to where I started, back to the beginning of the semester.
I didn’t care if I had to build all my friendships from scratch and study for
all my exams again. Nothing mattered as long as Laylah stayed dead.